It’s All about me

I w10647137_721543401265013_7148700790023327604_nas born in 1993 of September raised by a single parent named “Rowena” which I am very proud to have. She is a career woman, loving and a good cook.

Adulthood is not easy yet it made everything possible because I have two younger brothers one named Jayrome who is 3 years younger than me, he is the silent type middle child who loves painting, reading and studying. Along with him is our youngest, Alvin our little alvin who grown so tall and strong. He is also like his “kuya” silent type, intelligent and helpful. He loves to play online games and a home buddy.

Since I was a kid, it’s always been my dream to be somebody. I have dreams, i have plans and i really love to travel. I always love to put thing with colors and meaning. I explore and i adore.

I often play the guitar and piano, I learned some basic chords through watching tutorials from Youtube. I am a fan of any good lyric songs yet I love to listen to Jazz and classical songs. And because of that my friends kept say I am an old woman trapped in a young woman’s body. 

I admire people who have deep appreciation for everything. People who are not afraid to lose and to speak what’s on his/her mind. People who empower and inspire other people especially younger generation. 

Life, politics, current events, ideas, issues and most specially facts and trivas is my thing. I loved to discuss and to debate if it’s permitted. Collective knowledge and experiences; I value them. 

I’m just a typical young professional woman who loves to explore and discover new things. Same as appreciating the culture and life. I love the Philippines, I always believed that as a nation we can do more, far beyond what we expect.

I always like to speak what’s on my mind the very reason why i created this account, to brag and to blog. I am an IT by profession and a writer/blogger by heart.

I hope you enjoy!

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I’m every woman, it’s all in me

A single statement does not define who you are as a woman or as a mother. You are more than “na-ano lang” statement.

You are strong, maybe a single parent yet you are whom you want to be. The world might seems tricky and difficult to handle but that’s what makes you beautiful from inside and out.

They will never find someone like you because nobody wants to be the role of two in one body. You are intelligent and smart and most specially a loving-sacrificial mother. You are a brave soul whom mostly admire by everyone.

They don’t know your story and you are not entitled to explain it to anybody. You are whom God created you to be.

Cheer up! And never forget your always part of the hood, whether your single parent, mother, single teenager or a little girl. #WomanHOOD.

A little encouragement.

The 13 Reasons Why – Dear Clay

Dear Clay,

It’s not your fault.

She choose to give up life when all you need is right timing. She choose death when all you need is a little courage. She choose to take her life when all you need is more of her.

Imperfections doesn’t mean less.
Imperfections doesn’t mean death.

We are all bounded by our own choices.

It’s her choice to choose death over life.
It’s her choice to choose death over a lifetime with you.

To all the Clay’s out there. It’s not your fault, don’t make the same mistake she did.

Choose life even if it feels like you want to take yours too.

Ikaw ang Pangako ng Pag-Ibig

Ikaw Ang Pangako ng Pag-Ibig
Written by:  Jaynica Cestina and Alvin Feliciano

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula.
Kasabay ng dibdib kong kumakabog sa kaba.
Mga letra gusto kong sambitin,
At mga letrang gusto kong tuparin.

Mga pangakong nais gawin sa pang araw araw na gawain.
Hindi ko na kailangang ikwento kung paano, saan at kailan
nagsimula ang pagibig.
Ang alam ko lang nung una kita makita ay agad kitang inibig

Hindi man katulad ni cinderella o ni sleeping beauty ang pag-iibigan natin,
Ngunit mahal ang pangako ko sayo’y lagi kitang iibigin.
Gusto kong ipaalala sayo na ang pangakong ito ay hindi basta basta pangako.
Ito ay isang pangakong nais iparamdam, ipagkalat, ipahayag at ipabatid.

Pangakong laging ipapaalala sa panahong gipit.
Pangakong hahanap hanapin sa tuwing mawawaglit
Pangakong susundan, hihintayin at susuyuin sa bawag galit.
Mahal pangako ikaw lang ang iibigin.

Ikaw ang pangako ng pa-ibig na yayakapin.
Ikaw ang pangako ng pag-ibig na aarugain at lalambingin.
Ikaw ang pangako ng pag-ibig na hindi pagsasawaan kahit anong mangyari,
At ikaw ang pangako ng pag-ibig na nais kong laging buhay sa aking dibdib.

Mahal, maraming taon na ang lumipas ng una kitang makilala.
Maraming birthday, christmas, new year at anniversary na ang ating pinag saluhan, ngunit lagi mong tatandaan na sa bawat pag abot mo ng iyong pangarap lagi mo tatandaan na ikaw, ikaw lamang ang aking pangako ng pagibig.

Pag ibig na aking mamahalin mapahanggang huli.


The poem written above was originally written by me and my brother Alvin. This is a request surprise AVR for my uncle Edward to her wife aunt Dezy for their wedding anniversary last November of 2016.

I hope you understand that we are not a professional.

#MidPAF2015

PAF

Mid-Year Prayer and fasting

Few point I acquire during service

Intentions: In prayer and fasting our “intentions” must be clear, the intention to humble ourselves before the Lord and admitting life without him is meaningless. But for some like me (this was before), fasting is part of my obligation as Christian, and some think that this was an advantage for selfish acts because of the benefits of fasting.

During the service, the pastor made us clear that, prayer and fasting with the intention to seek God lead to deeper, passionate and secure relationship with him. Isn’t it exciting?

Prayer and fasting are one of the important tool to seek God and deep our relationship with God, through fasting God also reveal to us deep thoughts and wisdom we need in our daily lives.

Lost in digit: In prayer and fasting, we always make time, we might think we lost time, but what is lost time compare to the presence of God is not a waste of time, Pastor told us, PAF is making time, lessen the activities and seek God and not in your “spare” time. It’s not about the digits, it’s about the time you accomplish to experience God.

Satisfaction: As the body is satisfied with food, so do our soul, pastor told us that when we seek God and his presence we make sure that we are satisfied spiritually, for God’s words are the food of the soul.

Reminder: FASTING without PRAYER is NOTHING

TOTAL TRUST IN GOD: When we PAF we are totally dependent to God, to trust him, temptation is part of our daily lives but as long as we depend on him, he will give us the strength to resist any temptation.

Expectant: Always to look forward in meeting God during PAF, be expectant of his super natural works in the lives of the people around you and yours.

Lastly do not forget to CHOOSE to be HAPPY and ENJOY the prayer and fasting

Happy Prayer and Fasting everyone!

Elder’s React :P

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Old Sibling Struggles  lol! #OLD is not in our dictionary as eldest haha #10 is definitely us. Found myself reading some article about first born kids, find it quite interesting.

  1. First born kids are somewhat the trial and error of a new parent: Honestly first born don’t mind it; we definitely understand that parents are imperfect person.
  2. First born are tend to be controlling: The responsibility of being the eldest is not easy, you may say that we are “controlling freak” and “very authoritative and rule oriented”. All I can say is being the eldest take a lot of self-esteem to establish authority over your sibs, and a big heart to understand the tantrums you had. First born mind-set is not selfish which most of the sibs think. There intensions are not short tern discipline but rather a long term discipline that can be pass in generations.
  3. The high expectation to the eldest: This is one of the reason why eldest are tend to be achievers yet insecure, responsible yet people pleaser and lastly smart yet approval seeker. Every eldest in the family has this growing insecurity in taking the lead when parents are not around, most often they were the ones who take care of everything. As a result in their personal life, they were the one to work hard and help the family.
  4. Hurt: Most of the eldest were hurt when disrespectful come on their way through their sibs, we eldest always have the mind of “why did they not understand how to respect”, “I’m the eldest I demand to be respected” and it is true, eldest tend to feel authority violated when sibs don’t respect them as they are.
  5. Fear of new things: I really think that trying new things and bound to go with the trend is fine with the eldest, we might be traditional and family oriented but we are always found of new things, we are not too old to follow new trend.
  6. Always the good example and always right: I believe right in a way where the intensions relay, good example is really the hardest part of being the eldest because we tend to be a “perfectionist” in every way, but the sibs should also need to be understand that even if we try hard to be a good example, failure comes in our way, they should need to distinguish the things that needed to acquire from our experiences and eliminate the ones that are not beneficial.
  7. Eldest are too distant and mature: All I can say is that eldest are not too far for your reach, eldest tend to be the ruler yet they are lovely and understanding in every situation, they are also your cheerleaders when you feel down, you can tell them your secrets and expect to keep it till they die and lastly generational gap is never been an issue for us. All you need to do is approach.
  8. Nobody bothered to ask about their dreams and ambitions in life: I say true enough for this, nobody really bother to ask what are the dreams and plans do they have in the future, maybe because the eldest itself are too “bombarded” with the responsibly to help the family, they really don’t have time for their own life . eg: – Whenever they go out they need to be at home at specific time to look if the their sibs did their homework nor eat their dinner and also take care of the house. I remember my friend in one of our conversation about new grads, he told me that “the reason why graduate did not excel because of the mind-set and burden they have since they were kids, the mind-set to graduate and provide for the family is the highest priority that’s why they don’t mind whether they did not practice the course they take during collage”. True enough, but the truth is balance is what we, eldest need to be open to our parents on what do we want in life. I believe that they will support us every decision we made in life.
  9. Eldest are the one who receive the least of “a thank you note from sibs”: True enough, but eldest don’t mind, because they were bounded by loved. Whenever they see their sibs happy, they were also happy or seeing them satisfied by their cooking (sister know this haha agree?)
  10. Giving: Giving everything and less of themselves is never been an issue to an eldest. Something that sibs should be grateful for.

Everything that’s written above is true base on the insight of an eldest. But here’s another truth:

Everything written above is true, but eldest don’t mind having the responsibility to help the family, also eldest may feel a little bit less appreciated but the truth is they don’t mind because they knew every smile from a family member is a great reward for them, and lastly eldest don’t mind everything that written above because they were motivated by loved and the reward of being the eldest in the family is priceless, one of the most fulfilling task that God gave us and we eldest never regret being one

So appreciate them!

Thoughts coming during midnights, sorry haha nocturnal lang ang peg ko 😛 Blog starts 5:30am and end at 6:30am got me 1hour lol, drain brain cells 😛

#Justsimpleawareness #wishihaveonelol #butilovemebeiingtheedest #familyisloved #therewardbeingtheeldest

An open letter

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It took me a lot of courage to do this letter i don’t usually share this thing, this will be my first and last letter to you 🙂 I hope others will understand the reason why I’m posting this.  It’s not bad at all, to get your heart broken; right person will come through God’s way.


I really don’t care if you’re still in denial or what; I know for a short period of time we both know what is the word “had” back then. I honestly love the things I made for the first time with you, you really made my world turn upside down, you made me laugh, smile, angry, sing, dance and cringe,  you made me care more and less of myself, you made me realized that guys are not the same and it’s a choice to be who they want them to be, you made me see things beyond and you made me think that life isn’t bad at all, you also made me love and feel loved.


You might not realize it but I was this kind of girl who doesn’t usually let anybody else mess up with my world, I take authority over my life and never let anyone in, but I let you. I really did hate you for leaving me hanging on air and end up hating myself for not having the courage to ask why, through years a whirlwind emotion start to take over my life. I been bitter instead of better, I turn into something that I don’t want to be, I choose to rebel over a thing that I’m hoping for to return.


And at the end, I understand that I’m only hoping for something that isn’t coming, your words really drives me crazy holding on till the end, but I have to move on, moving on is never been easy, it took me years to finally say that “It’s really not coming, and it’s already “over” for both of us”. because i keep cuddling the emotion and holding on to the memories, I don’t wanna play blaming games with you. What I know is that, through the pain of falling in love for the first time it draws me closer to God, you love is a disguise of God’s love that I’m longing for.


So I say thank you for everything that I experienced with you. I never regret that one day I fell in love and got hurt, that one day I feel bitter and yet never imagine that i can still forgive, His love made me forgive. And it’s a great feeling; I realized I did myself a big favor for not holding garage over someone else. I really learned a lot through my journey of healing and forgiveness, and I’m able to share it to others.


I want you to know that you don’t need to feel guilty for hurting me either i, we both young back then, we made decisions through our emotions, and I already forgiven you. You’re one of the best thing that happen to me, so again thank you, I pray that the Lord will bless you exceedingly above and beyond because you’re a good, kind-hearted and a gentle person.


Goodbye FL 🙂

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